Following My Heart

Here's a little disclaimer...I have a pretty amazing life just as it is.
My boys are my joy, my husband is the best, my job is secure.
As good as things have been, I know I need to move forward 
to make a better life and a happier me.

 

Learning to find my way has been quite a journey.

All my life I have been the good girl 
with a side of stubborn and competitiveness.

I was one of the smart girls in school, so sciences and math were pushed.
I wanted to be the top kid, so I worked hard to see my name as high score.

There was the ability to succeed, but a true love of the academic world was never there.

I loved the art projects and the creative presentations assigned.  
Those things made my heart full!

No one ever encouraged me to pursue something that fed my creative soul as a career,
 nor did it ever cross my mind to head in a creative direction.

Doctor, lawyer, engineer, teacher...those jobs are what academic achievers do.

Just now as I turn 40 am I realizing that my heart yearns to create and make beautiful things.

I love seeing the potential in homes,

in a yard of fabric,

in a slab of wood,
or an old piece of furniture.

I have been in a classroom or on a retail floor doing the right thing
to make sure the bills were paid and food was on the table.
Now I long to shift into creating all the time.
I worked on a project all of Sunday and I didn't even realize how much time  had passed.
That shows me following my heart is the right choice.

It wasn't work and I was smiling all day.

I long to create beautiful spaces.

I just realized this week I have always been wired to decorate and create.

The tree house in my grandparents' backyard needed curtains,
my homes needed cozy, warm touches, my classroom must be calm and nurturing. 

How I feel when I enter a space is beyond important to me!

The bottom line is this...
smart and creative can go together.
I'm not quite sure how to be my own boss just yet
or if all these plans floating around in my head will work,
but I do know I have to focus on making it happen.
Being creative and making beautiful things is
just too important to my heart to just be a hobby anymore.

Reminded to Rest

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Oh boy guys!  This mama has been one sick lady!

Once upon a time I got bronchitis every February and then it just stopped happening.

I was not sure why, but let me tell you I was not complaining either.

Fast forward to this year and wham!

Chest feels like a body builder is standing on it...so not good.

I didn't/don't have time for this nonsense,

but it was exactly what I needed to be

reminded to rest.

What good are we mamas if we push ourselves so hard and so long

that we get completely knocked on our backsides?!?

Today I am thankful I feel a million times better,

but it came only by me slowing down and investing some time

into self care.

Why is that so hard?

Once I took the time to get my oils on me and got myself to bed early

miracles of miracles my body began to fight the junk.

It's okay to stop and rest mamas.

We need to fill our cups before we can do good for any of our people.

It's not selfish or mean to put yourself first every now and then.